Day 3 and 4 P90X

Ok day three was back and arms with the ab ripper, My Daughter and I were doing the back and arms her with 2lb weights I with 5 lbs. I don’t want to bulk up I want lean muscles with definition. Tony says that for lean you should do 12 to 15 reps and for bulk higher weights with fewer reps. We made it through the hour long DVD, and I find these really enjoyable, I look forward to these as I can do all the exercises and feel good about myself. My upper arms on the inside and the middle of my back feel the pain today but a good pain not a debilitating kind of pain. The Ab RipperX on the other hand is sooo frustrating. I try as hard as I can and can not do all of the routines. I keep telling my daughter at least if we try and really make an effort things will happen and eventually we will be able to do all of these just like the people in the DVD. (I wonder myself if that will be possible as it seems so hard to do right now) But I am really looking to make a difference not only in myself but in my daughter. Oh and if your wondering,

her before pics will be up soon as well, She is ten years old, 5’1” and 140lbs. For her age she is obese. She has a most wonderful outgoing personality, and really I want her body to match her on the inside. I want her to be healthy and happy. She has been a trooper and I am now doing the exercises in the evening to accommodate her. I know this is hard for her and I get nagging and annoying during the DVD, but I want her to do it right and see results.

I keep telling her that when we go on vacation this year (which is just before the 90 days are done) she will be a whole new person. Her aunt and uncle and cousins are coming from France to spend the summer with us, I told her they won’t even recognize her. I am doing my best to motivate her telling her what a great job she is doing and spending time with her doing extra activities together. She will make it and she will be happy!

So Day four was Yoga, both of us thought wow this is going to be a piece of cake. OH MY GAWD!!! Not even close. 1 and ½ hours of pure, freaking, torture. We were pouring sweat by the end of the first thirty minutes and he kept doing the same thing in-between the cycles and my arms were shaking so bad I almost re-broke my finger. If Tony Horton had been in the same room as me after the first thirty minutes I think I would have bunched his face. I was sooo frustrated I can’t even tell you, the idea that yoga would make me want to quit was just laughable, but that was what I was feeling. I felt so out of shape so inadequate so much like a loser. I had a hard time motivating my daughter because I could not even motivate myself. We could not finish the yoga, I fast forwarded and tried a few of the last stretches then before crying with frustration I shut it off and called it quits.

What a horrible feeling to get over, when I had been feeling so good about the workouts. I won’t let it stop me from going forward, I really want to change OUR lives and make us healthier and happier in our everyday lives. But I can tell you without a doubt yoga would have been a turning point for me had I been doing this alone. Thank God I have my Daughter to keep me motivated.

Find your motivation, find your strength, find yourself!!!